My reaction to the Box Scene video oh god this is so embarassing watch as I literally burst into tears at the end I look like shit dskjnfkjsadfs
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PREPARE FOR MY FUCKING REACTION VIDEO
Klaine - Box Scene
I can’t wait for Ryan Murphy’s reaction after he releases the Box Scene and sees that a majority of his followers have disappeared. Please let us pull this off fandom.
It is often said, “What happens in fandom, stays in fandom.” There are some things we are not supposed to talk about, things we are expected to keep hidden, because even though we rarely admit it, the idea of “fandom” carries with it a certain amount of shame and an expectation of judgment. For a long time, I wore that shame and sought to avoid judgment.
When I would attend events and people would mention Tumblr a bit too loudly, or reference a forum, or say, “Did you see that post?” I would get anxious, my eyes would dart around, and I would wonder who had heard and what they were thinking.
Lower your voice, we can’t talk about that here.
What will people think?
We don’t want to be seen as crazy fangirls/boys.
Recently, that all changed and I have the fandom to thank.
Oh god TEEJ YOU’RE MAKING ME EMOTIONAL AGAIN. I’ve said it to you before, but this Box Scene campaign has been the best fandom-related thing that I have ever been involved in. Before you contacted me with the idea of the video, I had been silently watching your whole Box Scene campaign going on, feeling guilty that there was no way I could help donate anything at all. Being 16 years old, I had no Paypal account of my own, and asking my mom to donate would have been futile since she doesn’t understand fandoms and how passionate they can be. When you messaged me and gave me the opportunity to be involved, I jumped on it. I wanted to help you so much, as a friend, and also as a way to thank you and contribute something to the cause. Knowing that the whole fandom would be watching, it gave me this enormous drive to make something better than anything else I’ve done before.
I had always wondered when people say “OMG SOBBING” on the internet or through text, if they are actually crying. When you called me up after I sent you that two minute preview, I was so shocked that you were actually, physically crying. I had no idea that it would have that affect on people. I was pretty happily dazed after that call. You really gave me the biggest ego boost ever, which helped me to continue on. And then when you sent me that email on Monday with the Box Scene script to put into the video, and called me up to to hear my initial reaction as I shakily read it outloud to you and Heather, I had a moment where I thought “Wow, we did it. We really got the script… and it was worth it.” And then on Tuesday night, when I sat anxiously in my seat waiting for the video to go on air in the livestream, I read people’s comments towards it in the chat box… and quickly realized that I was witnessing one of the best moments of my life.
Never had I imagined that a video I created would move so many people and garner so many tear-filled responses and reaction videos. Never had I thought that something I made would make so much of a difference. That the media and even some people who work on Glee would see it and perhaps influence them to hopefully make a difference in future episodes, and a difference in people’s lives. And it could have never started without you and Heather, and of course the fandom. We would have never gotten this far. This is something that I am truly and fiercely proud of.